Facebook Depresses Me

I took a 5 month hiatus from Facebook a while back. For various reasons, one being I just didn’t need or want my personal life spilled out there for everyone to see, I needed to get “off the grid” FB style.

Coerced by coworkers to get in the loop of our funny office photos I recently got back on.

Immediately two comments popped up. Glad you’re back! They read. Wow I hadn’t realized I’d been missed.

I have been slow to get back into the trappings of Facebook. And I don’t think I’ll ever have the love affair (or perhaps it was just obsession) I once had. And thank goodness. Because there were so many times after I spent 45 minutes trolling my news feed I would walk away with this heavy and negative feeling in my soul. These things did not add happiness to my life:

Photos of me two years ago. Young and fit. Damn I’ve aged.

Ridiculously happy families/couples.

People I never see anymore.

Family I lost touch with.

Babies I didn’t know people had.

Birthdays I missed.

Extravagant meals which make my shitty excuse for dinner depressing and demoralizing.

Movies/TV shows/news/celebrities I know nothing about because I live in my own self-imposed hibernation.

Political rants from friends I thought were more open and accepting.

And for those reasons I do not spend endless wasted minutes watching to see what everyone else is doing or saying while I should be on WordPress tapping into my creative soul! Or outside listening to the birds sing and watching the tree limbs sway. Or engaging with the person in front of me instead of my face stuck in my phone.

But I am not a total begrudged hater. Facebook does have its positives. Maybe I shouldn’t be blaming Facebook. I mean what did Facebook do but merely exist? Just trying to connect people and ideas and photos and lives? These are the reasons I still have an account:

I get to see photos of my nephews living their lives. Without this I would not have such a sweet visual insight into their daily/weekly lives.

All my awesome high school and college friends and the success of their creative endeavors.

The first neighbor I can ever remember and how she still has those curly locks and now a family and house of her own.

That friends and family alike are still out there, breathing, baring their souls or just sharing a recipe.

I can spend as little or as much time on Facebook as I wish. No one is force cramming it down my throat. It is my choice. So I choose to troll occasionally. And not deem it necessary to post every thought I have or every place I go. And to brag about my kid or not. And to try to take away the things that make me smile. And the things that leave a heavy space will just have to be let go and float away with all the other negativity that does not have a place here.

facebook depression

8 Comments

Filed under Observations

8 responses to “Facebook Depresses Me

  1. Great post, Jennifer. I think you’ve just spoken the truth for many people who don’t do Facebook, and for many who do.
    Ah-ha. Those two sentences have already said more than 99% of FB posts.
    I’ve deduced FB is for people who like to keep it light, sign in and sign off quickly, mostly because they have so many other FB posts from friends and relatives to catch up on.
    For me, it is what it has become in the 16 months I’ve been on it – a place to showcase new nature photographs I’ve taken and the extraordinary crucial posts about what my dog just did. Funny how so many FBers respond to Rusty’s world of inane events!
    Keep speakin’ the truth, Jenifer!

  2. Don’t believe everything you read and see on Facebook, most people are posting what they want others to see, putting up a false front … only the highlights reel. They all have their own insecurities and anxieties just the same. Take it all with a pinch of salt and build a life you are proud of.

  3. beth

    Wow, Jennifer. You hit the nail on the head with this one! So, true. Thanks for the great insight!!!!!

  4. Carol

    That’s exactly how I see it. Love FB because it keeps me in touch with people who live miles or countries away. Hate it for all the reasons that you list, and then there are those who brag about their perfect lives 24/7. I don’t believe a word of it!

  5. Yes, yes, yes. I agree and especially resonated with the part about it’s not Facebook’s fault. We do have to take responsibility for the time we spend there and what we take away. I hear from a lot of people it’s become this lazy procrastinating destination when something in life is just a bit too hard to deal with, and that’s when we slide down the slippery slope, going to FB to see if watching what others are doing can get us out of our slump. Nope, usually NOT.

  6. ron

    what do you mean you have aged.you r still as beautiful as when I first met you.and yes im glad u r back.there are some of us who actually miss u ya know.i miss giving my other sweetie a hug
    luv ya

    me

  7. No, YOU Go Outside.

    Yep, kind of depresses me too. I’ve been working a kind of time-consuming job for the last three years and FB was living proof that my friends were moving on without me. Events and parties that I couldn’t attend and now (because I’ve been gone for so long) no longer even get considered for. Was a bit too much.

    Great post!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s